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A Monday for flowers.  Slowly, but surely, the weeks are becoming more and more routine, and that feels GOOD. But just as it always goes, right when things seem to be getting back to normal and settling down something new happens to throw you off.  Hoping the holidays these coming weeks aren't enough to throw me off! Let's kick butt into the new year!


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It was one crazy (but amazing) weekend moving into our new house at 37 weeks pregnant. Being in our home state, next to family just feels great.  And having this Monday to lounge on the beach feels even better because it's our last official day at the beach (for now).  As of tomorrow, we're in full on baby mode/house mode.  

Happy 4th of July!

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Last week was a tough one for me.  In fact, these flowers, although beautiful, were covering trails and trails of tears pouring from my eyes.  My pot-bellied pig passed away early in the week, and for those of you who know me, you know how much this destroys me.  For those of you who don't, I can see how odd that sentence may seem.  Yes, I had a pig.  For a very long time.  He was my best bud throughout quite a few milestones in my life (and was even in my wedding pictures). I had intended on writing the deep, sentimental post about life and its hardships, but the words are just not coming.  I am still too sad. 

And just as I was struggling to get through this photoshoot and feeling uninterested in it and unmotivated by it in the previous weeks, it feels appropriate with this new chapter of my life to just retire it.  It was, after all, just supposed to get me through my 52 project of 2015 (you can see more about it here).

So today, I am just going to take another deep breath (I've been taking quite a few) and bury myself in my work.  Because sometimes life is hard.  And ugly.  And not beautiful.  I'm currently finding comfort in these words:

"For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone.  The shell cracks, the insides come out and everything changes.  To someone who doesn't understand growth, it would look like completely destruction." -Cynthia Occeli

For those of you int he middle of the complete destruction, embrace it today. 

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The cold weather has finally hit and I am surprisingly handling it very well.  We're officially moved into our temporary home, although we still have lots of cleaning to do at our house before closing, and it feels refreshing to be in a new space even though it's a bit of a sterile atmosphere.  I mean it's only temporary and I (we) can handle anything knowing there's an end date.

I'm anxious to set up a little studio corner here and get back to work.  It's been too long! Here's to a very Happy Monday!

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I'm nostalgic by nature.  Sometimes it's a blessing, but more often than not, you can continually get caught up in the past, paying no attention whatsoever to the present. 

I am feeling quite nostalgic these past few weeks.  For one, a new year is right around the corner, and like every other year before it, this one feels like it has passed so quickly - the quickest yet.  But also, a lot of big chapters are coming to an end in my life, and although the future excites me in many, many ways, I can't help but to feel that pang of goodbye.  And I know when one chapter closes, another opens, but I am holding on to these last chapters a little harder than normal.  And that's okay. 

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Last week was a bit chaotic in terms of my work and my mind.  I tend to work on a million things at the same time feeling flustered and rushed, wishing I could focus on just one thing and finish just that one thing before I start the next. But rarely does that happen. I tend to fight the chaotic, flustered vibe instead of embracing it, but then I stumbled on this quote and boy have things changed!

“The thing about chaos, is that while it disturbs us, it too, forces our hearts to roar in a way we secretly find magnificent.” Christopher Poindexter

And then I realized, it really is kind of magnificent.  To jump from one thing to another right back to the other without skipping a beat - yea, I'll call that a magnificent thing.